J Balvin – Colors of the Mind
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Heyyy everyone! Alma here, and welcome to a new episode of Behind the Lyrics. For those who don’t know me, in this series we explore the story behind artists and how their emotions are reflected in their music.
In the previous episode, we talked about Demi Lovato and her struggle with mental health. However, today we’ll talk about an artist who has transformed reggaetón into something deeper than just party music: J Balvin.
José Álvaro Osorio Balvín, known worldwide as J Balvin, was born in Medellín, Colombia. He grew up in a middle-class home, where from a young age he felt connected to art and music. However, his life changed drastically when his family began to face a financial crisis. They went from being economically stable to living in extremely humble conditions, which deeply shaped his view of success.
At 17 years old, he moved to the United States as an exchange student in Oklahoma, and later lived in New York City. There, he became interested in hip-hop, rap, and urban culture. When he returned to Colombia, he decided to mix those sounds with the rhythm of reggaetón, creating a unique musical style.
He started from the bottom, performing in bars and small festivals until he slowly made a name for himself. His first hit was “6AM” featuring Farruko, but his international success came with songs like “Ginza,” “Mi Gente,” and “Ay Vamos.”
Although his career seems perfect, J Balvin has been one of the most honest voices about mental health in Latin music. In several interviews, he has shared his struggles with anxiety and depression, especially during the peak of his fame.
“People think that success cures everything, but I was on stage feeling empty. I didn’t know why I felt that way.”
In 2019, during his international tour, he suffered a severe anxiety episode that caused him to pause his career for a while. Later, he confessed that he began going to therapy and taking better care of his mental health, realizing that success doesn’t mean happiness.
“It’s not about being happy all the time, it’s about being at peace with yourself.”
J Balvin has also been a pioneer in breaking masculinity stereotypes within reggaetón. With his colorful outfits, dyed hair, and messages of self-love and empathy, he has shown that being authentic is more powerful than following the rules.
Although there have been rumors about his sexuality, he has been clear:
“I’m not gay, but if I were, I would say it with pride. I have friends who are, and they deserve respect.”
That attitude has opened conversations about diversity and acceptance in an industry where homophobia still exists.
In his album “Colores” (2020), Balvin uses colors as emotional metaphors. Each song represents a different mental state, showing his inner journey between anxiety, calm, and joy.
For example, in “Rojo”, he expresses the pain of losing someone and reflecting on life:
“Morí y volví por ti, porque te amo hasta el fin.”
(“I died and came back for you, because I love you until the end.”)
In “Azul”, the tone changes, reflecting lightness and emotional freedom:
“Quiero aprovechar que tú estás aquí, y no pensar en lo que pueda venir.”
(“I want to take advantage of you being here, and not think about what might come.”)
And in “Negro”, he speaks about facing his inner demons:
“Estoy bailando con mi sombra, no sé si soy yo o el miedo que me nombra.”
(“I’m dancing with my shadow, I don’t know if it’s me or the fear that calls my name.”)
His honesty has made him a role model not just musically, but personally. In 2021, he even released an Amazon Prime documentary titled “El Niño de Medellín”, where he reveals his emotional struggles behind the scenes and how he aims to inspire others through vulnerability.
“Anxiety doesn’t define me, but it’s with me. And I learned to dance with it.”
J Balvin reminds us that talking about mental health doesn’t make you weak — it makes you human. His story shows that fame, awards, and money don’t guarantee happiness, but authenticity and self-care can truly save you.
If you’re going through a difficult time, remember that you’re not alone. Reaching out for help is an act of strength.
Counseling Services at Regis University:
Coors Center 114
Monday to Friday, 8:30 a.m. – 5 p.m.
303.458.3558
hcc@regis.edu
Crisis Line in Colorado:
Call or text 988
In our next episode of Behind the Lyrics, we’ll talk about Billie Eilish, a young artist who, despite her worldwide success, has also battled depression and anxiety. We’ll explore how her darkness turns into art and how her authenticity connects with millions of young people around the world.
See you soon, and remember to take care of your mind as much as your heart!